I woke up this morning feeling pretty crappy about some things going on in my life and as soon as I looked at my son, my eyes welled up with tears and I felt an overwhelming sense of joy and love, he's my miracle and no matter what life throws my way I will be ok because I have the love of my child! But Im not going to lie its definitly been a work in progress for me to become and stay such a positive upbeat person, but God has alot to do with it! I refuse to be negative, instead I will let tough times motivate me to pray harder, give more and never stop looking at the good and postive side of people and life, Its so easy to get caught up in negativity and drown yourself in things your feeling, I've always had a hard time with that, I love hard and feel A LOT! But i've learned its not a bad thing I have alot to give!
While I was pregnant I was forced to get strong and harden myself a bit just to get through the fear and emotions I was feeling, I had to lean on my faith, I prayed mulitple times a day for God to make this situation ok and help me be strong so I could be a good mother. and he mde it more than ok, he ade it wonderful! I know without a doubt that there is a God because he changed my heart, he granted me peace and joy through my affliction, even though I was scared I was able to find happiness in the small things, in people God brought into my life, he showed me his Love by surrounding me with amazing friends who just "showed up" in my life out of nowhere (Sarah and Beth) and my family and Noahs Grandparents, I can't thank them enough for their continued support and love!
Ang, I am so proud of you. You are a wonderful momma and you are doing so amazing with Noah! He is going to be such an amazing man someday! I am so beyond blessed to have you in my life and can't thank you enough for being such an amazing friend. You are so precious and wonderful... don't ever forget it. Love you tons!