Sometimes I dont know what I want or who I am, I get lost in the shuffle of changing diapers, cleaning house and trying to make every one else happy. I forget to stop and look at what i want or rather what I need! Days go by so fast sometimes and my life becomes blurry, kind of haze of days strung into a week. I get lonely and tired and my thoughts wear me out. It would be nice to just turn my mind off for awhile, stop feeling and thinking so much, but this is who God made me to be, deep intellectual, sensitive and loving. Those traits can't be turned off or dulled, they're too strong. I care a lot, I give too much, but at the end of the day I'd rather be me than anyone else...who that is I'm still trying to figure out but aren't we all learning, growing and changing? We never stop til the day we die, unless we give up, but that's not how I'm wired...I don't give up when things get scary, boring and difficult, i just gotta keep moving, keep loving and keep living and my life and the things I want will eventually fall into place.

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1. Anonymous on March 15, 2012 at 10:53 AM

   I agree with you 100%. I can relate with you a lot. My kids are my proud and joy. No matter how bad my day is. Your son is so cute! Love your blog! :)
   
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